One of Those Days

Have you ever had one of those days? Well that’s me today, it’s like I don’t know where I’m going or where my next steps will take me. I didn’t want to roll out of bed and the tears keep flowing for an unknown reason. I know I had so much to do before my daughter arrives Sunday but I can’t find the energy. I ended up going to the ER a few nights ago because last week while cleaning the garage I slipped and a heavy cardboard fabric tube jabbed me in my right rib section. I tried working around it but someone told me I should get it checked to make sure no break. They did a CT scan, no break but they are bruised and I was sent home with Lidocaine patches and a tube to breath in deeply every hour to keep my lungs clear to avoid pneumonia. So I guess it’s a good thing I went to have it checked out, it hurts, but I’ll survive.

When I finally get moving I walked around the back yard and visited my quiet corner. I go there when I don’t know where I’m going. It’s peaceful and I can feel connected and love by those who have passed.

I was also happy to see three yellow roses in Mom’s memory garden blooming where all the others are fading away. Lia always said yellow was her favorite color because it was happy and reminded her of the sunshine. So by seeing the beautiful yellow roses it brought me a bit of sunshine. I decided I needed to get moving so I mowed the back yard between my tears.

I know my mood will change as soon as my daughter and son-in-law pull in the driveway Sunday. It’s been too long since I’ve seen them. Everyone always loved Rich’s meatballs so every time family comes down now I make a big batch. The other day I made 162 meatballs as Chris, Bryon, my granddaughter Alli and her 4 little ones will be coming for dinner Sunday afternoon. I’m sure there will be more tears but those will be happy ones.

The day will get better as every minute is closer for their arrival. I hope everyone has a great weekend.